1st LPC... now SWL... will it stop here?

Hmm... I have to choose rite... but both are somewat not progressing.. I told a group of frens on Sun during fellowship tat there're just some things tat can't be compromised.. G told me to take it slow.. so I guess tat's wat I'm gonna do...... still not used to the N116... very quiet... now... I'm officially the youngest... really... small kid on the block.... the baby of the cg..... okie.. all these sound very wrong... but I'll get by them... haha... These few days.. really got alot of moments to cherish... so I brought my camera out with me almost everyday... Here're some pics I took over the week....

After a hard week... I certainly needed my Starbucks...

CHANGI AIRPORT... Took some tooty pics.. Bing & me in blur look...

The all-so-hugable Angeline...

Angeline, Bing & me... Gonna miss u guys man...

Zhifu Shifu.. the bestest leader in the whole entire planet...

The babes n I celebrated XM's bday on Sun... we went to a HK foodplace at Bugis... where they served humongous milk tea.... only a gorilla could finish it... I'm serious... I din take photo's of it but u shld hv seen it.... it's really drink until "pang sai"... really..... I went to the toilet 4 times after tat.... crazy... lactose intolerence.... so I'm gonna abstain from milk 4 the next 3 days or so.....

The fabulous menu which took me 1/2 hr to choose wat i wanted to eat...

Me, XM & Jas

Anna, me & XM

This was taking after I bombarded.. thank God it din show in the pic..

Happy Bday Xuemin... love ya sis....

JH was missing in the pics cos she wasn't feeling well... geez gurl... I hope u're fine now... dont forget our swimming date on Wed... PH!! finally..... I went to 1 of my ex-colleague- Michelle's wedding on Fri nite... real happy 4 her.. I teared during her march-in... hiaz... this is why I cant go 4 weddings... I'm always tearing when I share ppl's genuine joy....

My last meeting with the old N116...

Yesterday was our last cgm as the old N116.. how do I feel? Bitter-sweet.. most of my frens will be going to another cg.. In Sept 2006, I came to N116 with Gab, Bing & Angeline... Now.. of all the 4... I'm the only one left... Gab & me have been cg members 4 like half a decade.. tat's a long time man... my best bro... Gonna miss u man... really... When I heard the news tat we were gonna multiply.. I just prayed.. Where U put me God... I'll just flow... Funny where He places... nv expected tat I would still stay in N116.. He really works in ways we cannot see.. I got the "Most Courageous Person" award.. Din expect it at all... When it was time 4 a speech... I stammered my way thru.. totally lost 4 words.. haha...... celebrated Anna's bday the day b4.. I've been slping very late almost every nite this week.. still got work till tmr (Sat)... 1 more assignment due on Mon... havent started at all... Idy says I gotto have more time mgt... True... but I'm really super packed every wk... Guess aft my probation I really gotto sit down & plan out my schedule... if not I'll always be behind schedule & will hv lots of clashes... okie.... I betta go mug... tmr's another heavy day... Sun's grandpa's bday... havent been visting him... heard he misses me.. so I betta be there 4 him on Sun...

Clashes...

I really hate it when my schedule clashes... today I was actually scheduled to go 4 an impt mgt class cos nxt week I gotta and in my mgt comm assignment... ZF msged me abt a meeting at JW... then Belle also msged all the ICs to ask all choir members to go 4 the meeting.. I was super torned today... the meetin sounded impt but I just couldnt attend... tmr... I got choir prac... but I cant go... why... cos I've an assignment due on Wed... Super duper sianz!!! now u know why I seriously hate studying.... I downrite hate it... serious... hopefully I din miss much... I feel like this life of mine is like a race... miss anything n u find urself so so far behind... time to catch up gurl... they've all moved on.... *running*

False Alarm...

Pheww... realy a false alarm but glad I got it all cleared today... all my jie meis were alerted for nth... I had to spend time explaining not only to ZF but to them that I AM OK.. just was very very sick... nv knew tat offing my phone will lead to so much confusion... tink no matter how sick I am nxttime.. I'll try my best not to off my phone.. no promises... but I'll just try to... hiaz... I wonder... Y didn't they call my house? My mum could hv explained to them... hmm... nvm.... they're just concerned... better to hv ppl concerned abt u than no1 caring abt u at all... tat's sad... I wouldn't eva wanna land up in tat state... I love my frens... all of them.... God Bless ya'll!!! Muacks!!

I've been falling sick very frequently these past few weeks... think it must be some viruses floating around in the hospital... so funny.... there was a flu vacination goin on (which I missed).. but they said if u take it then u will hv some side effects aft tat.... so how? take or dont take? hiaz... medical stuff r just so ambigious.... no wonder most of the doctors look "nerdy"...not all... but most of them... sorry Docs! Anyway... my temperature got as high as 39 degrees on Wed nite... on Thurs I still went to work.... power rite? I've been having fever on & off for these past few weeks... could it be adjusting to my work environment? I hope I dont take too long to adjust... I need to get on with other stuff like my assignments & doing proper reading....

Forever.. can this be true?

Forever... wat does this word mean? wat can it be applied to? I have come to the conclusion tat nth is really 4eva in ur lifetime... only God's love is.. Today.. ZF told me some news tat was actually sth good but I took it the wrong way... hiaz.. I guess I just needed more time to do some digesting.. stayed with him & YB for quite a while during the blood donation drive... cherishing the moments.. how much more of these times am I gonna hv aft this rite? although I met my fren aft lunch to hang out... my mind was too pre-occupied so I decided to go home early instead... so many things on my mind.. everything seemed to doubtful and blurred at tat point in time.. On the mrt... so deep in thought... I came home.. poured my heart out to God.. just felt burdened in those 2 areas.. but God is good... aft tat "cry-out"... He spoke to me in my shower... I felt peace... tat He's there no matter wat.. tat He understands... So tender... So sweet... Giving me hope to carry on thru it all.... Change is truely the only constant in life.. just gotta move with it... the change... this life... some things tat I really wish could speed up... some things tat really make me wanna turn back time.. too short... just not handling it very well now... but no matter wat... I'll still hold on... Ran pass him today... market value went down a little I suppose.. but if it's meant to be.. it will happen... need not worry... saw him from afar... gave a huge sigh... only God can move this humongous mountain... give up? still waiting for a sign to... Assisgnments... tons of them due this month... can I handle them? will get them done by hook or by crook.. no choice.. I wanna grad by early 2010... too draggy... it should hv been completed by this yr...

Everything's gonna be alrite...

Last week was Pst Casey Treat... simple sermon but very applicable.. everything's fine now.. rollar coaster passing phase... met the babes for dinner yesterday nite.. JH's bday... me, Jas, XM, Anna, JH... the 5 of us.. just hanging out like the 'Desperate housewives'... whaha.. they're gonna kill me again if they hear this.. they hate it when I use the desperate housewives phrase on them... Anyway.. we went 4 dinner at some place in Douby Exchange (forgot wat's the name of the restaurant) then went to hang out at Starbucks... all of us used our Starbucks voucher we earned from "praying for it".. haha.. so funny... As we were laughing and talking a whole load of crap like we always do... I just looked at each of them intently... hiaz... My best frens.... wat will I eva do without them....

We're actually doing this pose that Jas does best.. her "Hallelujah!!"

Erm... we try to be photogenic after work... my eyes look kinda tired.. cos I really AM tired... I wake up 6am everyday including wkends... but God is still good.. He gives me the bestest frens in the whole entire planet... funny... my close frens aren't from my cg or ministry... they're scattered all over the place.. whahaha.. all from diff zones... but we always try our best to spend at least some time together once every 2 mths.. the one I get to see the least is XM... she's at JW...! Gosh... JH's sat expo... I seldom attd tat svc as well... then we hv Jas & Anna... same svc as me but diff zones altogether...

Anyway... Happy Bday gurl... Luv u luv u always...

The 'Hunting' Season

Yeh... it is the hunting season now in chc... but not 4 me... was just bumping into a few frens these few days & all of them asked me the same question..."how Amanda...? got some1 anot?".... here's where reality check begins... if some1 were to really fall in love with me... it will just be like Beauty falling in love with the Prince first then the Beast will subtlly appear next to majorly freak her out... I'm serious... 1st obstacle: myself... 2nd obstacle: my family... 3rd obstacle: my friends... I would say the 1st 2 areas are bigger... the tigress within & her family... it's complicated... too private to post it here... sometimes I wonder... where does this word happiness come from? God.. when U created this word, wat went thru UR mind? On Tues, I was admitted to the A & E @ Changi Hospital.. got discharged within an hr or so.. had 3 days mc... at home now recuperating.. Social services will be coming in a few days to have a talk with my family... I've an assignment due on thurs.. havent started yet... Every wk for me is a drama... so much so tat sometimes, I keep it all to myself.. not bcos i dont trust God... but bcos sometimes I'm just very very very tired of talking... all of us are not prefect... even leaders have their down times.. but it is impt tat we all climb out of that pit-hole & bounce back to our feet.. my close frens are still there... but they cant be there 4 me 24/7... only God can... I've this habit of looking at the sky during my quiettime to enjoy His presence.. I feel starring at this form of nature is 1 way to know tat there's always a God who's looking out for u.. I will be accountable after I've recovered.. tat's me... I'm deep... it takes a really very understanding person to get to know me within... If the guy is out 4 a fairy tale ending... then sorry... I'll pass.. now guys... this is my reason why I havent found some1 yet... it's very very complicated.. my life goes way past the everyday routine lifestyle of an avg Singaporean... so dont ask me y am I still not attached or y I still have not found some1? I will... in time to come but who? only God knows... I'm happy for all those around me who have found their love.... my advice... stay happy always.... work towards happiness.. Ask God for constant happiness.. cherish tat happiness & u'll be happy... most of the time...